So when one of the MSF guys I was chatting with proposed to meet up for coffee that Sunday...I accepted.
When we met I noticed immediately that he had no sense of style! And this is quite important for an Italian girl. Never ever wear a blue T-Shirt with back smart trousers and smart shoes! Don't try to mix too many styles!
He is a little bit youger than me and again as tall as me! I want a man who can protect me...so I expect them to be quite tall...but then this is my fault as you can see how tall they are, it is in the profile! But I guess I am too lazy to transform feet into cm! And I pay the consequences.
He was really sweet though...I spoke a lot, he had to listen...and I fired him with a lot of questions about me and his impressions of me! I needed to understand what was wrong with me, what people though of me when meeting me,when talking to me! I was feeling so vulnerable after M hadn't texted me...felt ignored!
Even if M. had behaved weirdly, even if he left me in such a nasty way...we slept together and women get attached to men when this happens...no matter whether they like the guy or not! Being in bed nacked with someone automatically creates a connection. It is an emtional situation and women put more emtional feeling into it than men (or is it just me thinking this)?
So how come M was ignoring me? Maybe that wasn't his number, maybe he never got the text, maybe....he was just not that into me! And I felt really unhappy!
So I started questioning my date with the aim of understanding what I needed to change to please man on a first date!
Of course I asked questions about him, his job bu in reality, I wasn't really listening. We spent a nice few hours together, without touching a drop of alcohol...but it didn't click...so eventually I used the excuse of studing in order to leave...
But that was the right thing to do...as he texted me straight away to check whether I got home ok (I did not drink, it is still light...why would that be a problem, getting home safe? Just because I live in Brixton?)...and during the week he asked me out again...
Why it is ALWAYS like that? If you fancy someone, in my case, they never ask you out for a second date....if you don't fancy someone...they will most likely ask you out!
Now can someone please explain what is the game? Or what is the solution to this? Cause it is always happening to me!
But you are probably wondering what's happend right? I tried to be nice...not saying much...using work as an excuse...and luckily he is going to be on holiday for three weeks...so maybe by then I will probably find the man of my dreams...and I will use that excuse....
In the meantime....
I will try to keep my legs crossed......
Till the next date...
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